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♥ 16:31;

RANDOMNESS.

theres been heaps of times when ive wanted to blog but by the time i actually got down to it, i didnt really feel like blogging anymore.
theres been heaps of times when ive wanted to blog abt not feeling like blogging, but didnt feel like blogging after.

i dont know why im still awake when i woke up REALLY early and didnt even sleep for that long.

dont really know what to blog abt.
i have millions of things just running through my mind but i dont know where to start.
maybe i dont even want to start.

missing jona so much.
hope he manages to book out tonight.

oh yeah, i was offered a free membership for st james power station when i was there on wednesday.
i thought the guy was crazy or something cos i didnt recognize him and he was saying hi and shit lol.
i gave the membership to yan instead.
whoo free entry, free drinks.
aweeesuuuuum.

and i didnt get kicked out (:

♥ 03:55;

EMO.

fuck la.
i am so fucking sick of all this shit.
motherfuck.

hungover.
still having a headache and eyes still a little puffy.

i dont dare to check my results.
fuck fuck fuck.

i need a cigg.

♥ 16:13;

IM BACK BACK BACK.

woo im finally back online.
think i havent used the internet for only slightly over a week, but it feels like aaaaaaaaages longer.
god.

anyways, IM BACK IN SINGAPORE!
yay yay yay back home.
got back last saturday and i only told jona i was coming back on friday night lol.
called him up while i was checking in, and he was super surprised.
hahhha.
THANKS HEAPS TO G, TOK and MIKE for making sure jona showed at the airport hahahha.
singapore was fatherfucking hot.
spent a looong time looking for jas' place lol.
didnt do much that saturday..
i spent a few hours sleeping while jona was at beach road getting his army stuff.
met him and the rest that night and just hung out.
i had niu rou shen mian, cos that was my last meal before flying off the last time.
and tok sent me back after.
THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH TOKK.

got up pretty early on sunday to go for jonas moms birthday lunch.
the food was good (:
we spent like a few hours eating lunch i think hahha.
headed back to jonas place cos he needed to pack his stuff to book in that evening.
headed over to mels after and finally met up with hamster, james, mel and gail (:
hung out till jona had to cab to camp.
called yan and she couldnt believe i was in singapore hehe.
met up with her in the city and hung out till after 12.
we cabbed back after and i realised that dover is pretty near the city.

went for this 'so you think youre ANDRO?' or something event last night at PLAY.
man, the girls are HAWT.
and i think i only saw four real guys at first.
i saw daphne and her friend there (i cant remember her name!!).
and yan knows daphne as well..
what a freaking small world.
anyways after i finished pissing, was standing outside the toilet with the rest when i spotted this really familiar looking guy.
and he was kinda looking at me too, when i realised..
fuck its jordan!
hahahhahhahah bloody freaking small world.
after we split, i realised i didnt get his number.
bumped into him outside the toilet again after i pissed just before heading off.
so we managed to exchange contacts.
jia managed to get into the finals so people, you should should should head down next week for the finals (well at least i think its next week).
the girls are fanfrigginawesome!!
mm mmmmmmm.
theres another girl, i think ollie, whos yummy as well.
and the jap looking one but i dont think she made it to the finals..
cant really remember.
oh but guys if youre thinking of heading down, they dont look hot in your sense, but hot as guys hahha just to warn you.
or you can still head down and feel bitter that these girls look better as guys than you real guys do.
heh.

ahh so much rambling.
im just hoping that jona books out later.
fingers crossed.

♥ 17:55;

first paper later in the afternoon.

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GAH.

♥ 03:40;

(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) done weed
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank something alcohol

(x) been in love <3
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight

(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date

(x) had a crush on an older person
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone/something die

(x) had/have a crush on one of your FRIENDSTER friends
( ) been to Paris
( ) been to States
(x) been on a plane
(x) thrown up from drinking

(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
( ) been mosh pitting

( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken pain killers
(x) love/like someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel

( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up

( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school

( ) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake

(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed/vandalized
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer

(x) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x) been in a car/motorcycle accident

( ) had/have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight

(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes

( )squashed barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the world
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like you were dying

(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently coloured with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldnt
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) kissed in the rain

( ) written a letter to Santa Clause
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x)watched the sun rise with someone you care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles
(x)made a bonfire on the beach

(x) crashed a party
(x) traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone roller skating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey

( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" at a sport game
( ) swam with dolphins

(x) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube - HAHA.
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex clothes
(x) sat on a roof top

(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) can do a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours
(x) stayed up all night

( ) picked and ate a fruit right off the tree
(x)climbed a tree
( ) had/been in a tree house
(x) arent scared to watch scary movies alone

(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have/had more than 30 pairs of shoes
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in jail

♥ 03:57;

silly boy.
(:

saturday was a fucked up day.
GAH.
first week of work is over.

♥ 03:37;

FUCKED.

well, trainings been going alright for me.
my trainer, narelle, said that i was going good and i should be fine for the piercings.
i dont really feel as confident but i think if i just keep a clear mind, i should be alright for the real thing.
so we're starting our piercings on tuesdaytomorrow.
im kinda excited and nervous at the same time.
i dont wanna fuck someones piercing up!
i was going to put up an advertorial for the free piercings on my blog but practically all the spots are booked up for the week alr, so theres not much point.
i think jacki and i are getting our piercings done first on tuesdaytomorrow.
jill was supposed to get something done but shes not sure what she wants done..
so i said id get something done instead in her place.

ive always wanted some industrials and a helix-inner conch vertical industrial.
i cant decide between just two industrials or one industrial with a vertical industrial, so i might just get all four.
but we arent doing industrials yet so i might ask narelle if she could do mine for me.
i hope she agrees..
i think jacki will be doing my vertical snakebites.

guess thats all im looking forward to for this week.

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im feeling so motherfucking sick of everything.
okay, not really everything; esp not training.
its mostly my studies..
its really affecting me and causing a strain.
i just think im really not in the right frame of mind.
fuck fuck fuck why do i have to fucking fuck every fucking thing up?
sigh im really feeling so fucked up.
this issue has been on my mind for months now..
i dont think ive ever been so affected.
i wish i could just call jona and speak to him, but hes having field camp.
well even if he wasnt, hed still be booked in and slping alr.
maybe hes alr sick of my going on abt it, since i havent really done anything to change the situation.
im so sick of thinking abt it.
i kinda know what to do, but i dont think i can.
fuck.
this is so fucked up.
i dont wanna have to think abt it.
i just wanna see jona i miss him so much then i can say goodbye.

♥ 01:46;