FUCKED.

well, trainings been going alright for me.
my trainer, narelle, said that i was going good and i should be fine for the piercings.
i dont really feel as confident but i think if i just keep a clear mind, i should be alright for the real thing.
so we're starting our piercings on tuesdaytomorrow.
im kinda excited and nervous at the same time.
i dont wanna fuck someones piercing up!
i was going to put up an advertorial for the free piercings on my blog but practically all the spots are booked up for the week alr, so theres not much point.
i think jacki and i are getting our piercings done first on tuesdaytomorrow.
jill was supposed to get something done but shes not sure what she wants done..
so i said id get something done instead in her place.

ive always wanted some industrials and a helix-inner conch vertical industrial.
i cant decide between just two industrials or one industrial with a vertical industrial, so i might just get all four.
but we arent doing industrials yet so i might ask narelle if she could do mine for me.
i hope she agrees..
i think jacki will be doing my vertical snakebites.

guess thats all im looking forward to for this week.

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im feeling so motherfucking sick of everything.
okay, not really everything; esp not training.
its mostly my studies..
its really affecting me and causing a strain.
i just think im really not in the right frame of mind.
fuck fuck fuck why do i have to fucking fuck every fucking thing up?
sigh im really feeling so fucked up.
this issue has been on my mind for months now..
i dont think ive ever been so affected.
i wish i could just call jona and speak to him, but hes having field camp.
well even if he wasnt, hed still be booked in and slping alr.
maybe hes alr sick of my going on abt it, since i havent really done anything to change the situation.
im so sick of thinking abt it.
i kinda know what to do, but i dont think i can.
fuck.
this is so fucked up.
i dont wanna have to think abt it.
i just wanna see jona i miss him so much then i can say goodbye.

♥ 01:46;

happy 19th jona.

i miss you heaps.
♥

♥ 00:35;

GOT THIS FROM FRIENDSTER.

1. WOULD YOU BE THE FIRST TO SAY SORRY IF YOU HAD A MISUNDERSTANDING WITH YOUR FRIENDS?
it would depend on the situation.

2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
a black beatles t-shirt? the normal round neck ones.. theyre called tees right?

3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
yeah, why not.

4. HOW MANY IN YOUR FRIENDS LIST ARE YOUR EX?
eh.. five.

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
dont know, almost every person.

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
none. kids are fucking annoying.

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR FAMILY?
yep.

8. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE NOW?
ooh, milo! really like that name. or lee. theyre both cool. imagine my name being milo teh. hahha milo tea, a new drink.

9. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?
yeah, more so if she were really attractive. ooh ooh shane!!

10. WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BDAY?
got pissed drunk and passed out, then got a little tipsy on another day.

12. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
oh early, around nine or something.

13. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT THREE NIGHTS AGO?
i think i was alr asleep. unbelievable, isnt it?

14. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
oh yes i do.

15. NAME SOMETHING YOU CANT WAIT TO DO.
get my life in order.

16. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
eh more than a month ago i think.

17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
theres so many things.. my determination? wish i had more of it.

18. IF YOU HAD 250,000 DOLLARS...WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
ooh. think i would take 50k to buy my celica and do the whole car up. and go shopping or something. maybe save half of the rest for school and invest the other half.

19. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
dont have a current job. might be starting one soon though yipee!

20. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
who the fuck is tom.

21. LAST THING YOU ATE?
ice cream with nutella. YUM.

23. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
hmm. dont really know.. maybe december?

24. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
june and november. exam months hahha.

25. WHATS THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
a green tuna shirt from jas. took me a long time to return that..

26. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
me! gah!

27. MOST VISITED WEBPAGES?
eh webct6 (what a nerd, god). different blogs.

28. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
myself i guess. cause of all my miseries.. boo.

30. DO YOU EASILY GET OVER A HEARTACHE?
yea i think so.. im used to it.

31. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
hm beer could be it.

32. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
not sure. you wait til that someone dies then ill get back to you. jokes! i dont hate anyone now. i dont think id really be bothered abt it. but then again, you never know til it really happens.

♥ 21:39;

AMAN101 EXAMINATION.

Instructions:
You are about to take your mid-semester examination on AMAN101.
This examination consists of 20 Multiple Choice Questions (MCQs).
Read through the questions carefully and choose either A, B, C or D as the correct answer.
After you have completed all 20 MCQs, click on the 'Submit' button.
Fill out your student particulars as requested and click on the 'Pass' button for the next few pages.
You have no time limit for this exam.
Good luck.


Create your own Friend Test here


ahhaha, so how did you pple do?
hey even if you dont know me that well, you can take it just for fun.

i did Js and got a really high score, but Ts was so fucking difficult.

♥ 07:32;

you can travel the world
but you cant run away
from the person you are in your heart
you can be who you want to be
make us believe in you
keep all your light in the dark
if youre searching for truth
you must look in the mirror
and make sense of what you can see

just be
just be

they say learning to love yourself
is the first step
that you take when you want to be real
flying on planes
to exotic locations
wont teach you how you really feel
face up to the fact
that you are who you are
and nothing can change that belief

just be
just be

cos now i know
its not so far
to where i go
the hardest part is inside me
i need.. to just be

just be

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i didnt know trance could be so meaningful.
lol.

♥ 07:24;

GIRLS ARE JUST DICKHEADS SOMETIMES.

this is not what i want.

this is not who i wanna be.

this is not the life i want.

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been super lazy, as usual.
argh.
im still at T's, J's and L's.
aha.
came to get my toothbrush cos i left it here the last time i was over.
lol.
ive got a presentation next monday and ive STILL not started yet.
OMMFG.

okay pix of whatever from whenever should be up soon i hope.

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im quite sick of everything.
wish i could just leave it all.

except you, of cos.

♥ 03:34;