我已不能多爱你一些


其实早已超过爱的极限

♥ 01:03;

dont think i ll be going to school tomorrow.
dont feel like it.
why waste the 2-day mc?


*sigh
dont know what im feeling right now.
but its not a happy emotion.

♥ 23:49;

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FACT 1:
- Name: amanda
- Birth date: 190287
- Birthplace: singapore
- Current Location: perth
- Eye Color: dark brown
- Hair Colour: dark brown
- Height: ~155
- Right handed or Left handed: right
- Piercings: 7 on ears


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FACT 2:
- Heritage: chinese?
- Weakness: hmm.guys?haha.
- Biggest fear: i dont really know..
- Your perfect pizza: something like the metosauraus.lots of meat(:
- Goals: slim down,get good grades at the end-year exam,get good grades for year 12.


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FACT 3: Your?
- Most overused phrase(s): fuck la (?)
- Thoughts first waking up: 'quick.think of something to get out of school.'
- Best physical feature: eyes?
- Usual bedtime: 12 plus
- Most missed memory: all memories from singapore!


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fACT 4: Preferences..?
- Pepsi or Coke: coke
- McDonald's or Burger King: bk!mackers sucks.
- Single or group dates: group
- Lipton Iced Tea or Nestle tea: lipton
- Chocolate or vanilla: choc
- Cappuccino or Latte: i dont drink either


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FACT 5: Do you?
- Smoke: no
- Sing: sometimes.more now after ktving haha.
- Take a shower every day: yeah,of cos
- Have a crush(es): naturally yes.
- Think you've been in love: nope.
- Want to get married: no
- Believe in yourself: no
- Get motion sickness: i get sea sick
- Think you're a health freak: no way
- Get along with your parents: yupp,most of the time
- Like thunderstorms: yes,when im indoors
- Play an instrument: nope


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FACT 6: In the past month, have you?
- Drank alcohol: yeah
- Gone to the mall: yeah
- Eaten sushi: yeah
- Been on stage: nahh
- Gone skating: nope


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FACT 7:
- Age you hope to be married: -
- Numbers and Names of Children: dont want any
- Describe your Dream Wedding: -
- How do you want to die: in some big hong kong gang fight hahha.
- What do you want to be when you grow up?: not too sure yet.


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FACT 8:
- In a boy/girl, what would you want? someone whos understanding,has a sense of humour,kinda shy sometimes,cute personality,quite outgoing,okk looks and loves me.
- Best eye colour: light brown?
- Weight: whatevers good for his body shape and height
- Long hair: i prefer shorter hair.


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FACT 9: List the number of:
- Drugs taken illegally: none
- CDs u own: quite some.dont know how many exactly.
- Piercings: 7
- Tattoos: none yet
- Things in my past I wanna forget : some stuffs.


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FACT 10: What..?
- Music are you listening to now?: canto songs(:
- Time is it now?: 1401h
- THINGS you treasure the most?: my snakeboard,handphone,computer..


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at home now cos i didnt go to school.
felt quite tired and sick in the morning.
had a massive headache.
have a 2-day mc,so will see if i feel like going to school tomorrow or not.
going to check my feet later as well.


off to d/l more songs.

♥ 14:22;

finally.updating(:

sianing away man..
supposed to be doing my history report cos the draft was due today.
but not in the mood to do anything now.
brain isnt working.


downloaded a lot more edison chen songs!(:
so damn happy.
fei men by edison is really nice!
now i can sing one more canto song.
hahhha.
used to have lots of his vids and songs last time.
but everytime the comps are reinstalled,his songs are wiped away.
*bleah


friday,240904
played bball,as usual.
lost again,as usual.
fucking refrees are so bloody racist!
since when does one get a foul when you hit your own team mate??
fucking ridiculous..
stayed for the U-19 and U-17 boys' games.
left at about 2030h cos there was some probbies with the taxi.
we dropped kim and gulva off at murdoch before heading for the city.
erin,agnes and i met jay and thames at lemon grass to have dinner.
the food there was really good!
went to pot black after that and there were about 6 tables with murdoch pple.
saw kid,jason,melanie and others outside as well.
hahha.
after a while,jay was suddenly noisy cos he was at pot black!!
(:
saw his co-worker there as well,whose style is kinda like edisons.
jay was being annoying cos he was taking my pix with thames' phone.
after playing for jes a while,we left cos we had to catch the last bus.
dont know why jay and thames made us run at the last part to busport.
i thought we were gonna miss the bus so i ran all the way,but we were early!
stupid..
so we took the bus and i walked home after that cos it wasnt so cold.


saturday,250904
made felix,bambang and felicia wait at the park cos i was changing.
so pai seh.
after stopping at bbgs place,headed for arirang.
met with stef,ley and fiona there.
the food there was pretty good.
felicia wanted to treat everyone but they wouldnt let her.
so funny.
felix dropped me at chisas place before heading off to study(!)
the party was pretty cool.
after i downed my first bottle,i felt really sick and felt like throwing up.
stood around for about half a minute then i burped,and felt soooo much better.ahhha.
think it was all the air inside from drinking it too fast.
party went on..
forgot i was sick and shared bottles with some pple.
sorry!
didnt get wasted by the end of the party.
some shit came up with lucas.
dont really know the full story cos i didnt wanna ask.
jay was then being annoying AGAIN by taking pix with thames' phone AGAIN.
after a while i couldnt be bothered to fight back..
at about 0130h,some of us ordered pizza cos we were hungry.
it was good,except for the one with anchovies.
yucks..
left at about 0230h cos it stopped raining so decided to hurry and try to get home before it started raining again.
thames and jay were on the bike and i wanted to run,but thames said that i was running like a little piggy so he cycled me instead.
after dropping me off,he cycled jay home.
but he got caught in the rain after dropping jay off ):
thanks again you two~


sunday,260904
was supposed to do english with lucas,shaun and merv.
but due to some stuffs,couldnt.
so i stayed home and relaxed.
was too lazy to do any homework.


today was okk.
a typical day i guess.
went down to the uni after school but didnt play anything.
jes sat around on my fat ass.
watched the small boys pratice bball and learnt some stuffs as well.
i think theyre soooo much better than i am.
they could prolly even coach me.
but quek said that ive improved a lot in bball already.
hopefully its true(:
gonna practice more over the term break.
can lose weight,improve my skills and save money at the same time.
hahhha.
quek sent jay,erin,gif,agnes and i home.
i had dinner,watched tv and now am blogging.
still havent done my history.
think mackays gonna be pissed tomorrow.
still have to do the english ad and econs report!
fuck man.
gonna jes do one page for econs.
heck care that bloody subject.


well..
one more week.
and it ll all be over.
i will have to let go.
really let go.
but i dont want to.
at least i dont think i want to.


erin:okk,ive updated already!quite a lot right?(: and although i dont know whether you were really upset or not today,hopefully youve thought things through.dont be ngon,okk?smile((:


celink:hahah yes,youre so nice!ahh nvm.dont need any luck with him already.its no use.we re jes gonna be friends ): but thanks anyways


good luck to all yous taking your promos soon!take good care of your bodies and minds.relax sometimes so yous dont stress up so much.all the best~

♥ 21:54;

laaazy

yay!
my mp3 player is fixed so i can finally use it again(:
im turning into this cheena piang person..
listening to chinese songs and looking through all the lyrics.
interested in chinese when i finally dont need it anymore in school.
so stupid!


so anyways,slept in till 1000h this morning cos my mom wasnt home.
she had gone to the airport to send my father off.
missed history,english and tag.
heard from taka that i failed the history test.
so he and chris finally beat me.
hahha.
nothing much happened in school today i guess.
had a haircut after school.
nothing drastic,jes a trim.


the weekend was fun!
but as usual,im too lazy to update.
i might do it another day.
see how my moods like.
and i hate that stupid search bar.
it blocks my date..


jay:dont worry and think too much.its all misunderstandings.no matter what,just remember that im always here for you okk?take care(:

♥ 23:59;

quizzie

01. Your name? amanda
02. Hobbies? guy watching,playing bball,dancing,watching tv,listening to music,playing soccer..
03. Gender? female/male(:
04. Primary school? chij-olgc
05. level: year 11
06. Horoscope? aquarius & pisces
07. Secondary school? zhonghua [most fucked up school ever!]
08. Address? raffaele place,murdoch
09. Email add? amanda_rulez_y2k@hotmail.com
10. Hair: outta shape,weird and in need of a cut
11. Eye colour? dark brown
12. Hair colour? brownish as well
13. Right or left handed? right
14. Marital status? single and unwanted
15. Siblings? 2 sisters
16. Last 5 digits of your mobile? 10301
17. When's your Birthday? 1902
18. Do you have a Car? not yet
=====================*Have you...*
21. Tried smoking? yupps
22. Drink alcohol? yea
23. Been hurt emotionally? of cos
24. Kept a secret from anyone? yes..im trustworthy(:
25. Been on stage? yupp
=====================*Favourites*
26. Color? black
27. Food? laksa,chicken rice,mushroom soup..asian foods mostly
28. Drinks? mountain dew,water
29. Number? 9!
30. Cartoons? spongebob squarepants!!the simpsons
31. Sports? bball,soccer
32. Song? hao xin fen shou
33. Movie? the godfather
34. Subject? history [damn slack!]
=================*Right now*
36. Wearing? school-u with jumper
37. Hairstyle? ponytail
38. Looking at? the monitor
39. Thinking of? HIM [muahahha]
==================*Do you believe in...*
41. Love? no
42. Faith? no
43. Yourself? no
44. Ghosts? yes
45. Angels? no
=====================*In the last 24hrs...*
46. Worn jeans? noppes
47. Cleaned your room? nope.maybe i should..
48. Cried? nope
49. Met someone new? no
50. Last person I talk to on the phone? bbg
=====================*Love life*
51. Do you have a BF? no ):
52. Have a secret admirer? NO
53. Do you wanna get married? of cos not.
54. Do you plan on having kids? no way!
55. How old you wanna be when u get married? 1234
56. How old you wanna be when you have your first child? 12345
57. How many kids do you want? dont want any!
58. Would you have kids before marriage? NO.HELLO
59. Do you have a crush? YES..its so sad
60. What do you want most in a Relationship? dont really know..jes for him to be there for me and to love me?hahha(:
=====================*Either one*
61. Pink or Black? black
62. Kiss or hug? hug
63. Summer or winter? summer.better than freezing man.
64. Sunny or rainy? rainy.IF im at home.
65. Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate
66. Hanging out or chilling? chilling
67. Music or TV? music
68. Hamburger or Pizza? pizza!yummy..
69. Smile or Laughing? laughing..so can get 6pecs hhaha
70. Sleeping or eating? sleeping.so fat,dont wanna eat already
71. Mc Donald's or KFC? kfc!i dislike mackers very much.
73. Sunset or sunrise? sunset..sunrise is too early.
74. On phone or in person? in person
75. Diamonds or Pearls? diamonds!nicer(:




bored,so decided to do that from pohs blog.
played bball yesterday and i think im improving.
hhahahha.
there was ***power yesterday,and i actually perspired.
then went back to school and shot more hoops.


today..nothing much happened.
hes always not in school.
3 days already.
saw him only for a couple of minutes yesterday.
think he went back to school for a test.
oh and bought new x-trainers for bball.
theyre not very nice in terms of design but cos my feet are so bloody small,i couldnt get the bball shoes i wanted.
*BLEAH
well at least theyre kinda comfy,better than my old shoes.
but the colours look kinda girly........


chua:ya but thats like the 'definition' of love,isnt it?ive felt totally comfy and myself with guys that ive liked,and accepted them for who they are.but that wasnt love..so how?hhaha.im still confused.but thanks for that(:

♥ 20:12;

havent been updating..
too bloody lazy to do so.


. youre the only one i want.but i can never have you . says:
hahhha..sigh.its so sad to think of him..and yet he makes me happy..stupid


-=[8]=- For The Championship. says:
haha


-=[8]=- For The Championship. says:
u're in love


. youre the only one i want.but i can never have you . says:
really meh?how do you know what love is..how do you know if love even exists?


-=[8]=- For The Championship. says:
well


-=[8]=- For The Championship. says:
i dunno bout tt


-=[8]=- For The Championship. says:
but u'll noe when u're making it


. youre the only one i want.but i can never have you . says:
wahahhahhahha!!


that was funny.
but really,how does one know when its love?
does love exist?
or is it jes an illusion?
i dont wish to ever fall in love,cos its such a painful thing to bear.
i wish i didnt even like him now..
it hurts and is such an annoyance.


is there such a thing as soul mates?
are cupids really born blind?
do pple really love each other for who they are?
does love start from the heart?
does love even exist?
will anyone ever love me for who i am?


and i think the very answer to all these questions is

NO

hahha..
pretty stupid right?
thinking about all these shitty stuffs.


my life is jes so superficial,with nothing deep.
it has no meaning.
i am jes here.

♥ 23:44;

whoa what the fuck man.
i was trying to burn the edges of my letters for the english assignment and i almost burnt my whole dustbin.
good thing there was an old bottle of erins water there and i poured it over the fire.
its good to be lazy and not throw things out sometimes.
or else there wouldnt have been any water around.
hahha what rubbish.
my room now is hell smelly and my throat and lungs feel weird.
i had to print out the letter again cos the whole thing got burnt up.
im def not trying again.
*cough cough*


jes spoke some to mr gavin lee,my ex form teach,and he reminded me of something in school.


niki says:
ic.. well...i juz trying to think how u were in sch... e tot of u playing truth or dare in 2e6 last time... u remember? and u kissed dunno who...in my presence...damn..


niki says:
funny tho


hahhha.
i had forgotten about that incident already.
although the four years in zhonghua were hell,there are still many good memories.
sigh.
hope there ll be many good memories like those,here in perth(;


wah gtg sleep already.
hope multicultural day ll be fun..

♥ 00:52;

havent updated in about a week already..
too lazy to do so.
prolly will update on tuesday.
feeling too brain dead to update now.
didnt do any work today although the english assignment is due tomorrow.
and i have to do some stupid multicultural stuffs.
fuck man.
fucking waste of my fucking time.


.when will life end?its taking too long.

♥ 23:17;