hApPy BiRtHdAy FeLiX !~

heyys..

feeling kinda down now
actually, not really sad but jes kinda toned-down
ah ..
think you know what i mean
jes like sian sian lidat
jay chou's 'Qing Tian' is a really nice song
very meaningful ...

so, managed to stay away from the comp for a week =)
have a lot to update now

tuesday, august 12 2003
spoke to marv about my "that" side
he said that it kinda puts guys off cos i'm too 'guy' or something
said that since i was born a girl, then i should jes accept the fact and act more like a girl
bing was there and told me to jes act like myself
so i said that's exactly what marv is telling me not to do
he wants me to be more girlie or something
*haha*
but i'll never be girlie
feels so awkward to act girlie and all
so not me
-sigh-
really wish i'd been born a guy
i really dislike being a girl
but then i like guys, so i can't be a butch
neither here nor there
irritating

wednesday, august 13 2003
today was that fateful day
the chinese gce "o" level results were released
i manage to bag a c6 !
at least i passed la
*haha*
the only one in class with a c6
-honoured sia-
yuki managed to get an a1 !
congrats to her !
a lot of people cried
either tears of joy, or tears of disappointment
and people thought i was weird cos i was still cheerie despite getting only a c6
and there were people with b3 who were crying their hearts out
the thing is, i didn't expect much from myself, so the disappointment was less
like they say," the higher you aim, the harder you fall."

anyways, spoke to xiao huang already and decided not to retake
even my parents don't want me to retake
so chinese is FINALLY outta the way !
-yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!-

oh and not sure if it was that morning, but tan hwee pin didn't even bother to greet us in the morning
she jes went straight to her topic
must have not wanted to embarrass herself by having no one greet her
*haha*
serve that bitch right
she caught some students too
they were around serangoon central and she saw that their shirts were not tucked in
dragged them back to school and made them stand at the GO
she also caught some students playing soccer outside school with their school shirt
made them go back to school too
ridiculous bitch!
so next time if i'm at home and i play bball or soccer with my shirt on, she can drag me back to school la
crazy monkey crap!

friday, august 15 2003
had my 'o' level english oral today
-hai-
think i may have kinda srewed up my pic description
-blah!-
i had two additional prompts for that
always knew that my pic description was weak
but reading was quite good
didn't stumble nor mispronounce any words
good considering i only read the passage once through
spent all my time working on the pic
conversation was quite fun too
almost trapped myself, but luckily i managed to get outta it
spoke about eminem during the convo
*haha*

after that, went to find marv
saw 2e1 practising their dance
so i stayed to help out a little
when i went to get my bag, played some soccer
was damn fun
haven't played soccer for so long
seems like time jes runs out on you
can't do whatever you like or relax
-sigh-

jes realised that my offline diary's kinda messy too
have been updating it like this blog
adding in dates here and there
and i haven't been very detailed

today
went for tuition in the morning cos won ton's class was cancelled
almost finished the a math paper
one question left
finally ..

read a little history and s.s for the test on tuesday
but can't seem to concentrate fully on them
but jes have to get the facts in my brain
haven't passed a single test up till now
don't think many people have passed

-sian-
feeling moody now
kinda tired actually
tired from doing nothing
*haha*
a real pig
my god !
jay chou's song is damn addictive
i love 'Qing Tian'
such a meaningful song
best of all, i can remember the lyric to certain parts !
*hahaha*

anyways, if there's time i might blog more
for now, it's dinner time

[Listening to: Qing Tian - Jay Chou - Ye Hui Mei (04:29)]

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