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kinda like what i had in mind
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okks..
supposed to update muh blog
but not in the mood right now
maybe later

♥ 19:07;

hApPy BiRtHdAy FeLiX !~

heyys..

feeling kinda down now
actually, not really sad but jes kinda toned-down
ah ..
think you know what i mean
jes like sian sian lidat
jay chou's 'Qing Tian' is a really nice song
very meaningful ...

so, managed to stay away from the comp for a week =)
have a lot to update now

tuesday, august 12 2003
spoke to marv about my "that" side
he said that it kinda puts guys off cos i'm too 'guy' or something
said that since i was born a girl, then i should jes accept the fact and act more like a girl
bing was there and told me to jes act like myself
so i said that's exactly what marv is telling me not to do
he wants me to be more girlie or something
*haha*
but i'll never be girlie
feels so awkward to act girlie and all
so not me
-sigh-
really wish i'd been born a guy
i really dislike being a girl
but then i like guys, so i can't be a butch
neither here nor there
irritating

wednesday, august 13 2003
today was that fateful day
the chinese gce "o" level results were released
i manage to bag a c6 !
at least i passed la
*haha*
the only one in class with a c6
-honoured sia-
yuki managed to get an a1 !
congrats to her !
a lot of people cried
either tears of joy, or tears of disappointment
and people thought i was weird cos i was still cheerie despite getting only a c6
and there were people with b3 who were crying their hearts out
the thing is, i didn't expect much from myself, so the disappointment was less
like they say," the higher you aim, the harder you fall."

anyways, spoke to xiao huang already and decided not to retake
even my parents don't want me to retake
so chinese is FINALLY outta the way !
-yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!-

oh and not sure if it was that morning, but tan hwee pin didn't even bother to greet us in the morning
she jes went straight to her topic
must have not wanted to embarrass herself by having no one greet her
*haha*
serve that bitch right
she caught some students too
they were around serangoon central and she saw that their shirts were not tucked in
dragged them back to school and made them stand at the GO
she also caught some students playing soccer outside school with their school shirt
made them go back to school too
ridiculous bitch!
so next time if i'm at home and i play bball or soccer with my shirt on, she can drag me back to school la
crazy monkey crap!

friday, august 15 2003
had my 'o' level english oral today
-hai-
think i may have kinda srewed up my pic description
-blah!-
i had two additional prompts for that
always knew that my pic description was weak
but reading was quite good
didn't stumble nor mispronounce any words
good considering i only read the passage once through
spent all my time working on the pic
conversation was quite fun too
almost trapped myself, but luckily i managed to get outta it
spoke about eminem during the convo
*haha*

after that, went to find marv
saw 2e1 practising their dance
so i stayed to help out a little
when i went to get my bag, played some soccer
was damn fun
haven't played soccer for so long
seems like time jes runs out on you
can't do whatever you like or relax
-sigh-

jes realised that my offline diary's kinda messy too
have been updating it like this blog
adding in dates here and there
and i haven't been very detailed

today
went for tuition in the morning cos won ton's class was cancelled
almost finished the a math paper
one question left
finally ..

read a little history and s.s for the test on tuesday
but can't seem to concentrate fully on them
but jes have to get the facts in my brain
haven't passed a single test up till now
don't think many people have passed

-sian-
feeling moody now
kinda tired actually
tired from doing nothing
*haha*
a real pig
my god !
jay chou's song is damn addictive
i love 'Qing Tian'
such a meaningful song
best of all, i can remember the lyric to certain parts !
*hahaha*

anyways, if there's time i might blog more
for now, it's dinner time

[Listening to: Qing Tian - Jay Chou - Ye Hui Mei (04:29)]

♥ 19:42;

heyys.

oh my gawd !
edison is drop. dead. gorgeous !!
he looks esp. yummy in his vids !
-wah-
can kena nose bleed i tell you
he's damn freakin gorgeous !
-yum, yum, yum!-

---

wells.
other than that ..
life's sOoOoO boring
there's nothing to live for in life
well, at least there's nothing to live for in my life
i have no goal, no future, nothing
i am nothing.
if i jes died right now, i wouldn't have any regrets or anything
in fact, i'd be damn happy
-blah blah blah-
tan hwee pin isn't helping much either
she's jes making my life more of a living hell
idiotic bitch

---

was yet another boring day
was damn hot today too
almost baked in the physics lab
and my experiment was damn fucked up
got me sOoOoO pissed
hope it doesn't come out in the prelim or o level or i'll freakin die
didn't study for the physics test
so i'll probably get around a ZERO
but i did manage to do a question or two
quite surprising ..

they finally installed the lockers today
damn "fast" this school
probably gonna eat our money from the payment of the lockers
fuckers.
and the lockers are situated outside 4e2's classroom
which means it's gonna be even noiser than before
-yay-
so "happy"
we can't even paste pix inside the lockers
and there will be random spot-checks
then i don't see what's so great about having a locker
good thing i didn't get one
cos i already have my own
- it's free
- right where i sit
- i can store whatever i want
- it's all to myself
i don't have to share a bloody small locker with someone else
but my sis got one, so maybe can tom pang a 'lil if i ever need to

don't think anything interesting happened today
nothing interesting ever happens
oh.
jes that the chinese o level paper results should be out anytime now, and my english o level oral's this friday
hope i do well
so i can score well, and go to a good school and leave this fucked up place !

wells.
better go now
still have another question of literature to complete
-bleah-
so "fun"
gtg then.
byes

♥ 22:34;

bOring

decided not to go for cat class again
so boring ..

oh ya.
i have a new puppy !
my parents bought her on friday
she's a west highland terrier and she's 3 months 3 days old i think
her name's Milki
she's so cute ~ cos she's pretty small now
quite a terror too
she's still screaming now, cos she's locked up
noisy

wells.
gtg get ready for church

[Listening to: Be My Baby - Edison - Ed Is On (04:24)]

♥ 09:22;

-argh-

aiyah.
damnit.
my ealier entry didn't manage to load !
-aarrgh-

didn't do much today
actually, didn't do anything today
think the booze from last night got to me
not used to alcohol

---

8th august 2003, friday
had cross-country in the morning
then headed down to plaza sing to meet up with how yong, lee, eugene and yan guang
saw zhi ying & eileen on bus 70
saw germaine in the mrt
saw serene ow at dhoby ghaut
saw tricia, zi jing and a friend of theirs too
was supposed to catch a movie but every movie was full
decided to have lunch instead

headed down to heeren to meet up with ali and ben
saw noel koh with a bunch of students from e2, e3, e6, e7
a bunch of students from 5n1, and 3n i think
can't remember who else
marv and bing joined us later
while we were waiting for our table, saw jane and co.
we finally managed to get some seats at 5
lunch at 5
early right ?
*haha*
we sat at seperate tables at first
but managed to grab a larger table so we shifted there
i tell you, eating with yan guang and lee is the hardest thing to do
esp. with yan guang
that guy's a walking disaster
everyone was laughing so hard
my stomach was hurting damn bad
we finished at around 6, and how yong, lee, eugene & yan guang left for tuition
ali, ben, marv and i walked around a little
split up after awhile

went to heartland mall to grab a book befor going to kenneth's place
took the bus 80 but missed the stop and ended up in geylang instead
so had to take a taxi to his house
-blur-
the bbq was pretty fun
was like a mini 2e6 renunion, as well as a 4e5 bbq
chun teng had around 2 bottles of booze and he threw up
damn terrible
watched the soccer match between HK & Real Madrid
don't know what happened to casillas man ..
played strip daidee
some people were playing mahjong
we left at around 11:30

was quite a packed day yesterday
fun too ~

---

if you really love him, you have to let him know.
if you really love him, you can never let him go.
if you really love him, he'll shine inside your heart.
if you really love him, you'll never drift apart.
if you really love him, you'll never leave him blue.
if you really love him, you'll treat him like he's gold.
if you really love him, thinking of him will never get old.

he kinda gives me a weird look if i look at him when i'm talking
it's like a ..
a curious look
i don't really know how to say it
i don't know why he gives me that look either
all i know is that all this hurts too darn much
maybe i should jes stick to my promise
-sigh-
i don't know what to think
messed.
up.

i cannot like him
i will not like him
i do not like him
boy.
who am i kidding?

[Listening to: Be My Baby - Edison - Ed Is On (04:24)]

♥ 22:42;

-whoo
jes returned from cross-country
didn't run at all and was part of the last group
damn funny !
they were doing the 'macritchie wave'
was quite nice
singing national day songs too

by the time we reached, lim yong khern detained us and told us to had to clean up the rubbish later
which was kinda good
cos we had more shade where we were sitting
and didn't have to see that bloody motherfucker
when she greeted the school, almost no one greeted her
damn funny

while i was walking, think i kinda twisted my ankle again
felt a sharp twinge
but was still good fun
this was the most fun and enjoyable cross-country ever
helped yan xi too ~
*heh heh*

---

after playing bball yesterday, left my handfone at the bball court
lucky thing i remembered in time and went back to get it
yi sheng and clarence had already picked up my fone
so i rushed to get it back
not safe ya noe ..
*haha*

and, i won't be alone today :D
cos i'm joining eugene and gang later
and having bbq after that!
-yay-
*haha*
and lee jes asked me if i'm gonna be wearing red
isn't that too patriotic ??
i don't exactly like singapore
think he's wearing red ..
-blah-

anyways, gtg now.
there's been a change of plans
cya

[Listening to: You - Edison Chen (04:25)]

♥ 12:20;

fuck that bitch

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---

anyways, new topic today.
then i'll start on yesterday

topic for today : zhonghua
once again, FUCK zhonghua
oOps ..
i mean fark zhonghua
you know what they're doing ?!
they're closing down CCAs !
actually, not them
it's that biggest fucker tan hwee pin !!
she sucks to the core !!!!!!!!

she's already closed down the sec one basketball boys' team
heard the reason was that bball's taking too many boys
there're not enough boys to join volleyball and badminton
mad, mad, mad !
what kinda reason is that ?!
she closed down rhythmic gymnastics last month
she might be closing artistic gymnastics for the girls, volleyball for the girls, scouts, girl guides, boys' brigade, girls' brigade and eldds
nothing's confirmed yet
but isn't it ridiculous ?
she wants everyone to be in cca groups
so they have more discipline
crazy !
why not close every cca down and have everyone join chess club ?!
already zhonghua has sOoOoOo little CCAs, and now the bitch is closing more down
she's a bloody mad dog !

the only single good thing i've heard is that she might be opening ncc for girls
the only good thing she might be doing; the only good thing that could actually be happening in zhonghua and i'm already leaving the school
but it's a good thing that i'm leaving
if i have to face that fucker for even a year more, i'll jump man
i pity all those not graduating
they'll have to suffer under the mad bitch

suay

aiyah ..

FUCK THAT BITCH

-hai-
better not talk about it anymore
my blood pressure's rising like nothing

ok, on to yesterday
6th august 2003
actually, i can't really remember what happened yesterday
uh ..
oh.
saw him first thing in the morning !
*haha*
wells.
don't think anything happening happened yesterday
oh when i was at the GO before going home, i saw felix !
he was punished and made to stand in front of the GO
reason ?
was caught playing bball in his shirt again
this boy ah ..
alwaz lidat

guess that was all for yesterday
thought i had a lot more to write though ..

for the chemistry test today, had to use the textbook to refer to the periodic table
and know what ?
the next page was sorta the answers to the last question !
and i didn't notice !!!
i felt like such an idiot !!
-aaarrrgh !!!!! -
gonna end up failing yet again

celebrated wei jie's birthday today after school
some of us bought a mp3/disc playa for him
it's quite nice
loads of functions too
the cake was pretty good
the part without his face print in it of cos

played bball after that
felt kinda good
had to release some of my 'anger'
hate this fucked up school

hate.it.to.the.core.

wells.
cross-country tomorrow
don't think i'll be running
lazy, and i kinda sprained my ankle while playing bball today
don't know where i'll be having my lunch at after that
maybe i gotta cook maggie mee at home
heading to kenneth's house for a bbq at night
that solves my dinner :D

gtg take a bath now
then have dinner
maybe the other way around
might write again l8r, since it's only the cross-country tomorrow
can relac a 'lil
byes

p.s

eDisOn rawks !

*haha*

♥ 20:36;

damn !!

heard that kazaa users are being nabbed
hafta download more edison stuffs
*haha*

nothin much in school today
was kinda boring ..

after school was a different matter
damn suay today !
something happened in school
but can't say la
really damn fucking suay
i was so pissed, i wanted to kill someone
i should have reacted differently man

the only good thing that happened after school was that i saw felix
and he sat at the table next to mine !
when i went across again, walked past him and he said bye i think
that's probably the only good thing that happened today
well, there was something else good
but it was actually a trouble in disguise

so, was walking to the bus interchange with swee shan and yan xi
two guys and a girl overtook us on the way
two of them were actually a couple
but the guy was short for the girl, and the guy looked so young for her
the guy was wearing a pink shirt
a pink one mind you
so i was commenting la
said wah he's so short blah, blah, blah

when we reached the interchange, saw bernice
she was with some st. gab guys
then she saw another st. gab guy sitting on the bench
and used some sweet voice to ask "why you diao me?" or something la
then i imitated her
swee shan and yan xi told me that she turned and looked at us
so suay ..
she heard me
maybe i'll kena ham tum by some of them tomorrow
*haha*

while we were waiting for yan xi to top up her card, the girl from before appraoached swee shan and me
asked me if i said her boyfriend was short
obviously i said no, that i was talking about my friend
she think i'm so free to pick a fight with her ah ?
over her retarded boyfriend some more
the girl was sOoOo ugly
the two were a perfect match
if she's so bothered about what people think of her boyfriend, then why go with him?
bloody idiot

swee shan kept wondering what would have happened if i had said yes
cos swee said that she didn't look like the kind that had back-up or anything
maybe she would have used her ugliness or her boyfriend's pink shirt to scare us or something
guess we'll never know now ..

but really damn suay today
-blah-
continue shooting off my mouth and i'm gonna kena from someone one day

saw him quite a few times today
saw him after school, and was quite happy
but something made me pissed
so i wasn't in the mood anymore
bloody hell

i'm wondering if i should tell him how i feel
before word gets out and he gets a warped version of everything
although i don't think it'll make any difference
heill probably jes be freaked out or something
-sigh-
why's it so difficult jes to like someone ?

dinner time
byes

♥ 20:04;

heyys.

had chemistry prac jes now
know something ?
i managed to do the chemical calculations behind !!
i know that the questions were damn easy, but it's the first time i've ever been able to do them
i think it's the first time i've even attempted to do the questions
now i realise that chemical calculations aren't that hard
and one more miracle ..
won ton actually let us off on time !
said that he'll go through the chem prac paper tomorrow during our lesson
ya !!
unbelievable right ?
*haha*
but something did seem to be wrong with him
he seemed outta sorts
a little blur, and in his own world
maybe he saw all the comments we wrote about him during the survey thingy

saw lee's new hairstyle this morning
it's a little weird
i think the back of his hair's cut a little too straight or something
*haha*
he tried to cut our queue during lunch
i pushed him away of cos
that boy's always cutting queues ..
should have taken a longer time to get outta school today
then can walk with him
he went to buy ice cream
maybe he would have bought me one too
*haha*
jes joking

okks.
only saw him a couple of times today

i like you.
i really do.
maybe it's cos of your exuberance,
your drive
or maybe it's jes you being you.
i jes wish you knew how i feel.

-sigh-
gtg for dinner now
having tuition later
byes

[Listening to: You - Edison Chen (04:25)]

♥ 19:14;

i'm back !
this'll probably be the last entry of the day
gotta go study more later
BORING
study, study, study all the time
so sucky

kinda happy now
cos of something ..
think you'll be able to guess la
related to him
*haha*

went down to orchard jes now
jes had lunch and walked around a little
went to trim my hair too
i'll consider cutting my hair only after our prom
that's if we do have one
i don't wanna be like a walking disaster on that night
wanna cut it damn short :)

wells.
gotta go get dinner now
byes

♥ 19:25;

wells.
better go now
gotta get ready for mass



think it's gonna be yet another boring day
cya l8r

[Listening to: How Bad - Edison Chen feat. Gillian (05:08)]

♥ 09:42;

morning !
decided to skip cat class this morning
jes didn't feel like going
was damn tired too
i'll jes go down for mass later

cos it's so damned early, only two people are online
maybe i'll take more quizzies

alvin jes came online

[Listening to: You - Edison Chen (04:25)]

♥ 09:05;

missed won ton's lesson this morning
partially cos i was lazy and also cos i wasn't feeling too good
passed bing his tix before he went for won ton's lesson

did some of my social studies homework jes now

went to heartland mall yesterday for lunch
ended up staying there until around 6
saw this guy there who was pretty cute
but when i saw him again ..
i kinda changed my mind
he looked sorta gay

found this really great book at myepb
but i can't seem to remember the titile
so i can't find it on the web
-blah-
i really wanna buy that book !
it's great !
and interesting

saw him yesterday !
don't think i saw him that many times

saw felix too
he was punished and made to stand in front of the GO
he tried to sneak into school cos he was late, i think
damn funny



was thinking about whether or not to cute my hair today
actually, i've been thinking about it for quite long already
kinda sick of my long hair
wanna cut it damn short, and spike it up !
damn nice ~
*haha*
i tried spiking my hair before, when i was younger
but my hair was still too long to do so
couldn't stand
but ..
still hafta consider

uh.
don't think there's anything else to write
cya

♥ 21:28;

eDisOn !!!

mmm ..
look at him
his skin is flawless !
edison has like, perfect features
hmmm ..
does he have a dimple ?
don't think so right ?
but he has laugh lines by the sides of his mouth
nice !
*haha*
but it's so unfair that he looks so good !
and there are people like me ..
-bleah-

wanted to put a really nice close up pix of edison up there
but it can't freaking load !


different poster of Infernal Affairs
edison and shawn are waaaaay back man
can't see them
*haha*
when the poster for the prequel comes out, bet they'll be right in front
shiok man !
*haha*

didn't know that edison has starred in quite a few movies already
but some look really dumb, judging from the posters

wells.
maybe i'll update more later
gots ta study now
byes

♥ 17:39;